I was able to get out for a good 45 mile ride yesterday with a decent amount of climbing. I need a few more of those with some increasing miles before feeling like I can tackle getting over the Cascades just 2-3 days into the pilgrimage.
I am suddenly starting to feel an opening. Today I was ready to return from the ride with two fairly significant blog subjects–on Christian identity and Mother Earth. My only hesitation is that both of them had “aha” kinds of feelings behind them. I just was not ready to have revelations this early in the process.
It is as if with the activation of the blog and the nearing of the pilgrimage there is a sudden opening to see my life in a new light. I know I have felt this before with preaching. I have had periods where the creative juices just seems to flow from some deep psychic source for weeks on end. Then there are those months when I feel like I am trying to pull ideas out of an old dry creekbed.
Anyway…I can feel something starting to come alive. I can sense a window beginning to open to my soul. I was surprised that I had a couple of aha’s yesterday. I was not ready for that and I am just not quite ready to share those yet. So remind me tell you about them sometime. I have them stored away in my mind for when the time feels right. Until then, I am glad to see the window starting to open a crack. I wonder what else is going to blow in while the window is open.